FAMILY BLOODLINE
Who Am I? I am A reflection of my God - given family's bloodline, for they are rooted deep inside of me, even in the core of my DNA. Truly God and my family is my lifeline, and each and everyone of them share their individual connections within my heart and soul. And unfortunately, when our love ones die, nothing and no one can replace that ' sacred connection ' within our being. For example, when my father, my sister, and my brother died, each of their deaths were life- shattering, traumatically sudden deaths, especially since we have such A close knit family bond. Al.though I loved them all the same, and their deaths were equally devastating, they all had their own distinct grieving characteristics. So I've realized that although you may have lost your father the same way that I lost my father,but none of us grieve the same way, because we all have our very own unique personalities. For grief is as diverse as our DNA makeup., although in A lot of ways it's universally the same. But let me tell you, out of all the agony I've endured during the deaths of each of my love ones, it all pales in comparison to the relentless pain and horror I've experienced since the death of our precious son" Andre! " Those were the worst days of my entire life! It's grief at it's highest level! Since' Andre's ' death, I've had several people say," I know exactly how you feel, because when my father, or my brother or sister died, I felt the same way you do! " Although I never told them this, but as much as we love them, there's no way to compare losing A sister, brother or even A father, to losing A child, that was birthed out of your body, nourished from your bloodstream, and connected to your soul! Although I'm A witness, that it certainly by no means diminishes the depth or extent of their grief. Howbeit I'm also A witness that when you child dies, you feel as though A part of your heart has literally been snatched out of you, and nothing in this life can totally replace it! But nevertheless, I'm persuaded that God gives us A' reserve ' supply of strength, that we don't even realize we possess until we need it. And I also believe that there are many situations that we all face wherein we may only need A quarter of A tank of our ' reserve ' strength in order to survive. On the hand, sometimes we all encounter insurmountable trials, such as losing A love one, especially A child, whereas we not only need our reserve tanks filled, but we need an overflow of our reserve supply just to sustain us on A day by day basis. Ultimately God is the only one that knows exactly how much we need and when we need it the most. And he will never, ever put more on us than we can bare! So we must fully trust that he knows what's best for us, and truly believe that through God, we are ' more than conquerors! ' And I thank God that my ' family's bloodline ' is my God - given inheritance! " And I absolutely love each and every one of you! "